Friday, April 15, 2011

7:12, Jumaat


aku tak dilahirkan dalam kesenangan juga bukan dalam kesusahan
aku tak dididik dengan kekayaan juga bukan kemanjaan

tapi aku diajar menghormati orang juga diri sendiri
tapi aku dilatih menyayangi orang lain seperti diri sendiri

dan aku telah terapkan yang terakhir itu dalam diri
sehingga memakan diri sendiri

terlalu menyayangi tanpa sedari itu semua hanya mimpi
tepuk sebelah tangan tak akan berbunyi
tapi bagaimana kalau ia pernah berbunyi kemudian terhenti?
tapi bagaimana?

bukan membenci kerana aku tak reti
masa aku perlukan untuk marahi diri ini
masa aku perlukan untuk terima hakikat hidup ini
kerana kau tak pernah mengerti
sungguh aku yakin kau tak pernah mengerti

aku cabar kau berbalah
jika kau rasa benar dan aku yang salah
balas kembali mel elektronik yang aku kirim
kita bincang supaya terubat luka yang terhiris

aku masih menghormati kau.jangan risau.
cuma aku sedang cuba untuk tidak menyayangi kau


Sunday, April 3, 2011

i'm sorry dear


hello people

yes i'm sorry dear blog.have been so long i didn't write anything here.i even didn't open the blogger's tab and read other people blogs as well.shall i say i'm too busy with the hospital attachment and plus the internet sometimes not that good for me to open the blogs.but never mind i promise will post something every time i'm back at home.

what to write?
i've thousands of words to spill it here.but i don't know whether people will read or not.but who cares right?this is my blog :P

just finished my hospital attachment.my last hospital attachment.gained a lot of new knowledges and experiences.we become closer.thats the important part in our friendship i believe.i'm getting scared day by day thinking whether i can be a good pharmacist or not.only few months left before my status will change from student to a government servant.fixed salary every month but fixed working hours and sometimes extra working hours.can i cope with it?can i be a good pharmacist and follow the ward round?can i dispensed and counsel patient about their drugs?oh Allah please help me and guide me to be a good pharmacist.

only a few weeks left before final exam begins.will have my SPA interview on thursday.so,i'm currently at home cause i need my mother to prepare the file.its like a common practice among me and my brother that emak will make sure everything is ready before we go for an interview.

next week will be my final hospital presentation.after that i'll spend few days at home.and maybe around 21st april i'll go back to puncak alam to continue my study week.need to study smart this time and make sure i'll pass all the papers.insyAllah.

my exam will start on the 28th april until 9th may.after that i'm free.hoping that i don't have to repeat any paper.especially ethics and forensics.its too difficult until i don't even know how to study for that paper.its all about aw and law and law :(

one thing come across my mind.i read a post in my schoolmate's group.one of my friend post something that sounds like he is kind of angry because med student ex-mozac looks arrogant.maybe didn't notice him and just walk pass by him.i don't know why but i have some feelings that hes talking about me.theres no harm right for me to feel like that?i think it might be me because the one who post about it is currently studying in kolej sains kesihatan near that hospital sg.buloh.and i just finish my hospital attachment there.maybe he doesn't know that i'm not a medical student cause we wear white coats like doctors too.if thats really me i'm truly madly deeply sorry cause seriously i'm very very very bad in recognizing and looking for people.just for my little concern about other people feelings.yeah,sorry mate!maybe you should say hello next time you see people that you recognize in case the other party didn't remember you :D

okaylah i better prepare my resume.please take care.maybe i can write something later here.don't forget o eat good foods okay.love you!


 
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