Skip to main content

bersendiri atau berdikari


beritahu aku apa bezanya
terangkan pada aku apa definisinya
aku tak mengerti
dan aku tak memahami

susah untuk ditafsir bukan?
susah lagi untuk menafsir
maka fahamilah diri sendiri
kerna itu yang paling bererti


aku tahu hormon dalam badan mula mempengaruhi perasaan.bila aku lebih suka bersendiri.tambahan lagi akhir-akhir ini keputusan ujian-ujian aku kurang menggembirakan.aku sedih dan sedikit kecewa dan sedikit putus asa.aku tak tahan melihat kejayaan orang lain sedangkan terlalu banyak masa dan tenaga dan fikiran aku lontarkan untuk belajar.tapi pasti mereka lebih banyak mengorbankan segala-galanya.maka aku rasa bersendiri bukan satu kesalahan.mungkin menjadikan aku lebih berdikari dan sedar siapa diri ini.kalau boleh aku tak mahu susahkan sesiapa lagi mulai sekarang.aku harus menjadi diri sendiri dan berusaha sedaya upaya.aku harus kuat.terlalu banyak dugaan Allah akhir-akhir ini.aku tak sekuat mana untuk menghadapinya tapi sekurang-kurangnya aku harus berusaha.aku berdoa aku dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.yang penting aku mesti belajar dan belajar dan pastikan selepas ini aku lebih bersedia untuk setiap ujian dan dapat keputusan yang baik.pasti sejadah dan bilik air akan menjadi teman air mata aku minggu ini.selamat mengalir air mata.

Comments

Mardhiyah said…
zati!! be strong!! Allah wont test u without knowing you can endure it!! markah test kte pun sgt2 terok.. even trok dr everyone else.. yg pntg skrg is to wake up.. n be prepared for the bigger challenges ahead, success is not forever, failure is not fatal :D
izzati said…
mardhiyah,
thanks mar.i know there must be hikmah disebalik semua dugaan Allah.sometimes mar i cant even think rationally about it.i really need a strong heart but i dont have it.but be prepared is the best answer.final exams are waiting.

Popular posts from this blog

a personality test

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. Your views on education You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend ...

garlic naan

my dinner a.k.a supper tonight is garlic naan as usual after meeting or study at RGV we'll lepak-lepak di Restoran Hakim kegemaran semua yang paling hampir dengan rumah kami actually,bila duduk ramai-ramai macam-macam cerita keluar but tadi first time mencuba garlic naan not so bad lah.haha btw,finally dapat juga makan Duran Duran my favourite donut di Big Apple hari ini makanan yang dimakan semuanya meninggalkan bau yang sangat kuat daripada durian sehinggalah ke garlic tapi semuanya sedap tau.harus dicuba! malam ini aku mahu berusaha siapkan assignment mr.tommy owh.banyaknya kerja tapi jangan risau wahai blog aku tak akan lupakan kamu dan aku sayang kamu lebih lagi dan aku dah lama tak rasa lega macam petang tadi i need somebody to talk and malam ini aku rasa seronok walaupun tak ada apa yang pelik pun yang penting aku dapat cakap dengan azneeza md.nayi rindunya sama kamu! kawan-kawan, selamat menyiapkan assignment Mr.Tommy!

disember

hello there its December already and i'm gonna start my new semester on the 4th january 2010.another few weeks to spend at home.practical at pharmacy really helps me to memorize some drugs and learn new things.but i can't describe the tiredness in me every time i come back from work.in the first week i can't stand to walk around and stand for a very long time.but in the second week its getting better. my precious saturday and sunday is here.now i understand why people really appreciate a day off from work.its the only time when you don't have to spend so much time outside.relaxing yourself at home and no early morning wake up.and i even have some time to blog.i haven't completed my log book yet.really want to do it every night but then by 10.30 i'll fall asleep i front of the television already.but i promise to myself that i'll finish it before the new semester start. my result will be out on the 10th december.i really hope i don't have to repeat any pap...