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Today the Facebook memories pop-up and remind me that I was up there climbing the Aki Nabalu five years ago. How time flies.... Actually, the so confident me replacing someone just 2 weeks after I came here in Sabah. From a sedentary lifestyle suddenly want to climb Mount K. Well, at least I tried and I got my color certificate okay! And, who knows that is the beginning of everything. No. No. I am not getting married to any of the porter. It is the beginning of me getting to know whole group of new people. The people who are funny, spontaneous and cheerful and supportive. And, you also in that group of people. And, we become friends after that. Until now. Despite all the fights, all the disagreement, all the terasa hati, all the drama and all the mengada-ngada stories, we are still friends till today. I actually make a promise to myself that when I'm here in Sabah, I won't fall in love with anyone. Not even gonna look for anyone. I can't. I am too heart-...

hi there. (i know you are reading this but i'll just pretend that i don't know) i am in the lazy mood but i just want to kill my 20 minutes mask-time. so, bear with my all small caps this post. (too lazy to even press the shift button) actually, i am half way writing my birthday trip entry but it is still in draft. lol cause i feel like writing something else. everyone definitely want to find someone in their life. someone who care someone who understand someone who will be there by their side and i am one of them, like any other people reality today, at this age, i have received uncountable times of that multi-million dollar question about marriage. i can feel the pressure last time but as i get older i get wiser as well (masuk bakul angkat sendiri) and i am getting better in answering that question with my infinity answer. i am pretty sure there are people out there think that me and my friends who are still single and available that we are too picky. put ...

For the past five years, I have been flying in and out from here. I have been taking emergency flight back home when uwan and atuk admitted. I have been worrying almost all the time when they are not feeling well. And, I am tired now. For the past five years, I have been asking my parents to fetch me from airport every single flight. I have been needing their help to send me to airport every single flight. I have been visiting hundreds of times to the airports. And, I am tired now. For the past five years, I have been alone here without my family. I have been cooking in the kitchen without mak. I have been driving without abah by my side. And, I am tired now. For the past five years, I have been dreaming of me going back home for good. I have been imagining myself become a student again. I have been dreaming a lot of dreams. And, I am tired now. And now, i am torn between my master and my family. Getting my master degree is definite...

Assalamualaikum. Hai there, it has been so long I did not write here. Probably will try to write more frequent this year. (konon azam tahun baru) We just came back from Tokyo. Not really that baru. 10 days ago and we think that I should write about this trip. In case anyone out there need references on how we survived our trip for nine days. But, let me tell you something. 1. I am going to write in bahasa rojak (if you feel annoyed reading it please do not read from the start). Well, I saw some netizens commented on FB post bout how someone tulis post pasal "OPAH" using bahasa rojak which I think it is just another desperate attention seekers tactic. 2. This is NOT "You can survive Tokyo under RM 1000" or "Visit Japan for budget only RM300" . We do not restrict our budget at all. The cost is not really cheap but we tried our best to minimize the budget.  So, here you go.... Flight ticket One fine day, my housemate said she wan...

hai there! it has been so long I did not post anything. I did wrote something but I did not post it. too many things happened. I'm getting older. not only me, you also right? 2016 gonna leave us in few months time. my boss favorite question is, "what  have you achieved this year, Izzati?" apparently, I'm still cracking my head for an answer at least to his question this year. honestly, I never imagine that I'm gonna be here today. never imagine myself in Sabah for FOUR years. freaking FOUR years! I survived staying 1013 miles away from my parents. despite you know I flew back almost once a month. up to a point people are wondering if I got boyfriend back in Semenanjung. its more than a boyfriend. its my parents! its another long story. need to dedicate one whole post to summarize my 4 years in Sabah. you know what,  things happen unexpectedly. once I had a very bad heartbroken. I put too much hope in someone. it took me so long t...

abah selalu pesan pada kami adik-beradik, dalam hidup ini kita tak akan dapat semua benda ada benda kita kena korbankan untuk dapat yang lain betul abah. menginjak umur hampir 30 (oh, exaggerate saja), macam-macam ragam manusia boleh nampak. duduk jauh 1013 batu daripada keluarga, siapa sangka hampir 4 tahun dah dekat sini. tengok orang pergi jalan, terus jadi macam budak kecik mengadu dekat abah. dan abah as usual, trying hard to calm me down. "ada benda yang orang tu tak buat, tapi angah buat. sebab tu dia boleh pergi jalan tapi angah tak" too bad future husband. abah already put a higher level of my expectations to men in my heart. dengan jujur, I spend most of my salary for flight tickets. kan dulu pernah saya coretkan, kalau balik setiap bulan boleh buat mak abah happy, saya akan buat.  bahkan kalau setiap minggu pun mungkin saya sanggup. syurga saya masih lagi di bawah tapak kaki mak. balancing life between work and family is importa...