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its my facial-at-home day.
having this 20 minutes mask routine every Sunday before starting a new week tomorrow.
lips and face scrub just now.
beauty is not only painful sometimes (threading, waxing) but it requires some consistency and discipline.

december is always full with christmas sale everywhere
and public holiday of course
with a cultural diversity in Sabah, everyone will get excited about it
everyone enjoying the sales
everyone organizing gift exchange party

and i also learnt about winter solstice party in december
they will make tang yuan
the glutinous rice ball and eat with brown sugar and ginger soup

and december-january will always be my travelling month
inshAllah can't wait for my january trip
may Allah ease our journey and everything goes as planned
this is my first time planning a trip for 4 person to a foreign country
hopefully it will turns out awesome

tomorrow i'll start my flexi hours 7.30-4.30 for one week
and also my passive oncall for one wee…

How I met you...

Today the Facebook memories pop-up and remind me that I was up there climbing the Aki Nabalu five years ago.

How time flies....

Actually, the so confident me replacing someone just 2 weeks after I came here in Sabah. From a sedentary lifestyle suddenly want to climb Mount K.
Well, at least I tried and I got my color certificate okay!

And, who knows that is the beginning of everything.

No. No. I am not getting married to any of the porter.

It is the beginning of me getting to know whole group of new people. The people who are funny, spontaneous and cheerful and supportive.

And, you also in that group of people.
And, we become friends after that. Until now.

Despite all the fights, all the disagreement, all the terasa hati, all the drama and all the mengada-ngada stories, we are still friends till today.

I actually make a promise to myself that when I'm here in Sabah, I won't fall in love with anyone. Not even gonna look for anyone. I can't.
I am too heart-broken when I left…

finding the one

hi there.
(i know you are reading this but i'll just pretend that i don't know)
i am in the lazy mood but i just want to kill my 20 minutes mask-time.
so, bear with my all small caps this post.
(too lazy to even press the shift button)

i am half way writing my birthday trip entry but it is still in draft.
cause i feel like writing something else.

everyone definitely want to find someone in their life.
someone who care
someone who understand
someone who will be there by their side
and i am one of them, like any other people

reality today,
at this age, i have received uncountable times of that multi-million dollar question about marriage. i can feel the pressure last time but as i get older i get wiser as well (masuk bakul angkat sendiri) and i am getting better in answering that question with my infinity answer.

i am pretty sure there are people out there think that me and my friends who are still single and available that we are too picky. put too high standard f…

Five years

For the past five years, I have been flying in and out from here. I have been taking emergency flight back home when uwan and atuk admitted. I have been worrying almost all the time when they are not feeling well. And, I am tired now.
For the past five years, I have been asking my parents to fetch me from airport every single flight. I have been needing their help to send me to airport every single flight. I have been visiting hundreds of times to the airports. And, I am tired now.
For the past five years, I have been alone here without my family. I have been cooking in the kitchen without mak. I have been driving without abah by my side. And, I am tired now.
For the past five years, I have been dreaming of me going back home for good. I have been imagining myself become a student again. I have been dreaming a lot of dreams. And, I am tired now.

And now,
i am torn between my master and my family.

Getting my master degree is definitely my ultimate dream.
(Don't get me wrong, findi…

Winter in Tokyo

Assalamualaikum. Hai there, it has been so long I did not write here. Probably will try to write more frequent this year. (konon azam tahun baru)
We just came back from Tokyo. Not really that baru. 10 days ago and we think that I should write about this trip. In case anyone out there need references on how we survived our trip for nine days.
But, let me tell you something. 1. I am going to write in bahasa rojak (if you feel annoyed reading it please do not read from the start). Well, I saw some netizens commented on FB post bout how someone tulis post pasal "OPAH" using bahasa rojak which I think it is just another desperate attention seekers tactic.
2. This is NOT "You can survive Tokyo under RM 1000" or "Visit Japan for budget only RM300". We do not restrict our budget at all. The cost is not really cheap but we tried our best to minimize the budget. 
So, here you go....
Flight ticket One fine day, my housemate said she wants to go somewhere cold to cel…