Skip to main content

Keinsafan di bulan Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah dipanjangkan umur bertemu Ramadhan semula.

Semalam diberitahu rakan sekerja ada ADR (Adverse Drug Reaction) untuk dilaporkan di Wad 3B. Kami di HTJS di kehendaki melaporkan 7 kes ADR setahun.

Jadinya setelah selesai tugasan Drug Chart Monitoring di 3A & HDW kaki melangkah ke 3B. Mencari-cari katil 9. Allah Allah Allah!

Sebaknya hati hanya Allah yang tahu.
Istighfar panjang dalam hati. Selak-selak BHT (Bed Head Ticket) pesakit hati teramat sayu. Tergamam seketika.

Untuk kepastian, kaki dilangkah menemui doktor yang menjaga kubikel 2. Kata doktor pakar pembedahan hanya mahu kesan advers dilapor dan direkod tidak lebih daripada itu memandangkan keadaan pesakit sudah sebegitu. Dalam hati, Ya Allah panjangkan lah umur pesakit.

Adik,
Mungkin sudah tertulis begini nasibmu. Tapi bersyukurlah Allah panjangkan umurmu adik. Terima kasih pada siapa yang ketemu kamu di dalam longkang itu. Post Op D36 kamu masih survive adik. Walau mungkin kamu sengsara walau mungkin kamu terseksa kanu harus tahu mereka disekeliling sangat menyayangi kamu.

Adik,
Jangan salahkan doktor tidak merawatmu. Itu semua kuasa Allah adik. Doktor mungkin sudah tidak berupaya dan buntu untuk terus meracunimu dengan bahan-bahan kimia lagi. Doktor kata adik boleh balik. InsyAllah nanti Isnin kita bertemu lagi jika adik masih di wad.

Adik,
Craniectomymu itu pasti menyakitkan. TBI mu itu pasti menghantui seumur hidup. Acinetobacter baumanii infection di kedua-dua mata mu semoga sembuh dengan segera. Sekurang-kurangnya dapat kau tatap dunia ciptaan Allah ini. Rashes yang kau dapat akibat dari antibiotik itu semoga semakin baik keadaannya.

Adik,
Sayu rasa hati sebelum melangkah meninggalkan katilmu. Melihat ibumu merayu "abang,bangun lah abang". Allah Allah Allah. Adik dengarkan ibu adik panggil tu. Adik kena kuat untuk mereka. Tidak semua diuji sebegini. Hanya mereka yang terpilih sahaja adik.

Adik,
Doaku kepada Allah. Semoga dicekalkan hatimu dan keluargamu menerima dugaan ini. Menghadapi ujian Allah. Sesungguhnya seandainya Allah lebih menyayangimu Adik, kakak doakan adik bahagia di sana & insyAllah semoga Adik ditempatkan di syurga sana.


InsyAllah.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Winter in Tokyo

Assalamualaikum. Hai there, it has been so long I did not write here. Probably will try to write more frequent this year. (konon azam tahun baru)
We just came back from Tokyo. Not really that baru. 10 days ago and we think that I should write about this trip. In case anyone out there need references on how we survived our trip for nine days.
But, let me tell you something. 1. I am going to write in bahasa rojak (if you feel annoyed reading it please do not read from the start). Well, I saw some netizens commented on FB post bout how someone tulis post pasal "OPAH" using bahasa rojak which I think it is just another desperate attention seekers tactic.
2. This is NOT "You can survive Tokyo under RM 1000" or "Visit Japan for budget only RM300". We do not restrict our budget at all. The cost is not really cheap but we tried our best to minimize the budget. 
So, here you go....
Flight ticket One fine day, my housemate said she wants to go somewhere cold to cel…

You go girl!

hai there!
it has been so long I did not post anything. I did wrote something but I did not post it. too many things happened. I'm getting older. not only me, you also right?
2016 gonna leave us in few months time. my boss favorite question is, "what  have you achieved this year, Izzati?" apparently, I'm still cracking my head for an answer at least to his question this year.
honestly, I never imagine that I'm gonna be here today. never imagine myself in Sabah for FOUR years. freaking FOUR years! I survived staying 1013 miles away from my parents. despite you know I flew back almost once a month. up to a point people are wondering if I got boyfriend back in Semenanjung. its more than a boyfriend. its my parents! its another long story. need to dedicate one whole post to summarize my 4 years in Sabah.
you know what,  things happen unexpectedly. once I had a very bad heartbroken. I put too much hope in someone. it took me so long till I can completely move on. Libra is very loy…

pesan abah

abah selalu pesan pada kami adik-beradik, dalam hidup ini kita tak akan dapat semua benda ada benda kita kena korbankan untuk dapat yang lain
betul abah. menginjak umur hampir 30 (oh, exaggerate saja), macam-macam ragam manusia boleh nampak. duduk jauh 1013 batu daripada keluarga, siapa sangka hampir 4 tahun dah dekat sini. tengok orang pergi jalan, terus jadi macam budak kecik mengadu dekat abah. dan abah as usual, trying hard to calm me down. "ada benda yang orang tu tak buat, tapi angah buat. sebab tu dia boleh pergi jalan tapi angah tak" too bad future husband. abah already put a higher level of my expectations to men in my heart.
dengan jujur, I spend most of my salary for flight tickets. kan dulu pernah saya coretkan, kalau balik setiap bulan boleh buat mak abah happy, saya akan buat.  bahkan kalau setiap minggu pun mungkin saya sanggup. syurga saya masih lagi di bawah tapak kaki mak. balancing life between work and family is important. I'm learning a lot of things here. to be ind…