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kamu di pagi hari


apa masalah saya boleh bersabar dengan kamu

menangis di pagi hari macam orang gila

terima kasih kepada kamu

tapi saya rasa tiba masa untuk berdikari

saya boleh bersendiri


kamu jangan cari saya.saya tahu saya perlukan kamu tapi kamu tidak

maka saya harus belajar tidak memerlukan kamu juga

kalau saya gagal dan tetap perlukan kamu saya akan cari kamu

saya harap kamu juga perlukan saya satu hari nanti


ya.biarkan saya sendiri

cukup sudah semua mimpi yang makin hilang saban hari

biar saya hidup dalam realiti


maka,saya doakan kamu selamat pulang

kalau kamu benar-benar perlukan saya cari lah

jika tidak biarkan sahaja saya begini

jangan cakap apa-apa


dan saya akan terus belajar

tanpa henti


bila kebodohan melanda di pagi hari.beginilah jadinya.belakang sangat sakit.sangat sakit.mungkin itu sebab mengapa aku menangis di pagi hari.bas pukul 9 maka harus mandi sekarang.aku tak sanggup jumpa kamu kali ini sebab aku tak mahu rasa ini terus mengalir dalam diri aku.aku harus BUANG rasa ini jauh-jauh.sebab kamu tak merasa yang sama.dan sebab itu juga aku yang merana seperti pagi ini.berhenti jadi orang bodoh.sebab itu tak akan membawa apa-apa keuntungan.pagi bermandikan air mata.balik nanti tolong urutkan belakang yang sakit ini.mungkin perlu mengambil ubat penahan sakit sebelum naik bas.inilah akibat tekanan yang melampau-lampau dan tidur yang tak menentu tempatnya.tolonglah bas punyai tempat duduk yang empuk.kalau tak aku menangis lagi dalam bas.




Comments

izzahismail said…
hey.what's wrong?
mcm sgt pressure.

hope things will be fine for you :)
izzati said…
izzah,

too many things suddenly popped up in my mind..harap tekanan ini berlalu segera..

thanks.insyAllah i'll be fine..

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